I NEED YOUR PRAYERS

I had my example last week and this morning my gyn called me himself and asked if mom could bring me in for an ultra sound. He said for me not to freak out because he's knows about my mental disorders and stuff. 

There are cancer cells in my uterus. There are no lumps or anything weird and my cervix doesn't show any cancer cells but the ones in my uterus are a worry. 

I'm going to an oncologist this week and he will do whatever tests he needs to do. My gyn couldn't say what all would happen. He could give me surgery, chemo or whatever depending on his findings. I'm very scared and my suicidal thoughts are running on high as I can't handle life. Yes, my psych already called me. 

I'm going to try to get through this visit and see what my options are and go from there. 

I might be gone from here for awhile. I truly hope my blogging friends stay on as my friend since I won't be reviewing and that google doesn't cancel my free account. 

But I think having cancer cells is more important than who's going to stay your friend and if a website is going to cancel your blog. 

Any prayers will be greatly appreciated. 

I will be back hopefully. I'm hoping sooner than I think and that this isn't something bad and nothing bad will happen. We shall see. 

I'm going to be spending my time with my dog for now. 

Mel