Your Voice Is All I Hear by Leah Scheier

"I was the one he trusted. I was the one he loved, the only one who believed him, even when his own mother had locked him up and thrown away the key. And now, I was going to pass down the white tiled hallway, knock on his doctor's office door, slam his secret notebook on her desk and make her read it, make her understand what he was hiding, make her see what only I had seen."

April won't let Jonah go without a fight. He's her boyfriend-her best friend. She'll do anything to keep him safe. But as Jonah slips into a dark depression, trying to escape the traumatic past that haunts him, April is torn. To protect Jonah, she risks losing everything: family, friends, an opportunity to attend a prestigious music school. How much must she sacrifice? And will her voice be loud enough to drown out the dissenters-and the ones in his head? @goodreads 

MY REVIEW:


https://www.goodreads.com/review/show/1324783185

*Mild Spoilers*

This book really got to me. This book is about schizophrenia, bullying and certain people that just never give up on you. The reason is got to me is that I have mental and medical issues and I can understand what it's like to deal with them. I have know someone who's father was schizophrenic and the things they had to go through. This is the disease that terrifies people. Yes, the person can be dangerous and yes, sometimes they can be monitored to where they can have a life and be more in control.

April starts back to school very much dreading it because her best friend Kris, transferred to an upscale neighborhood and transferred her to an upscale school. April doesn't want to be at school without her best friend. She feels without her best friend she will just be invisible and have too much to worry about. But... then.. she meets Jonah. He's the new boy in school and really kind of cute and super nice to her.

After a bit of time they form a bond and start going out. Her friend Kris is nagging her about why he hasn't kissed her after two or three weeks! April is wondering the same thing, but you see Jonah is just a really nice guy and the day finally comes that they kiss and are in love. But something is happening with Jonah. Why does has he started holding his hands over his ears? Why does he look around frantically?

April and Jonah mom have become friends and they start talking about Jonas just being sick. Until Jonas starts having desperately scary episodes and they have to take him to the hospital.

Jonas has a back story where his best friend that was gay ended up being killed. He was bullied because of who he was and was killed for it. Jonas blames himself and one other person in his life for that happening. The doctors that have him in the psych ward think it may have started his downward spiral into this new world.

April stays by his side through all he has to go through. She's there every day after school visiting him and trying to help him. She was so strong for him and so many things happened that were not so good, but I just can't give out those types of spoilers.

This book is under one of my favorites now and I plan to buy it when it is released. It is sad and happy at the same time. I know that seems weird but it is and I loved it so much.

I wish more people in this world would not look at people with mental illnesses as lazy, or say, "just get over it." I mean, you wouldn't say to someone with cancer, just get over it..right? Wouldn't we all "JUST GET OVER IT IF WE COULD"!!!!!!!!

Here are some sites for information and advocacy on this particular disease if anyone needs help on the subject. Thank you to the author for supplying these: www.schizophrenia.com www.saarda.org

RECOMMEND TO: EVERYONE!

***I would like to thank NETGALLEY and SOURCEBOOKS Fire for giving me the opportunity to read this wonderful ARC for my honest review***

 

5 STARS!!!!!