For My GR Friends Only Because GR Won't Let You Type Alot

Hello my lovely GR friends. 

This is not going out in the cosmos and will only be listed here for a short time. GR won't let me write all that I need to write. 

I won't be talking too much this month, at least at the beginning. It's down to the wire and I want to get my books read and get my badges and do stuff with my groups. 

I have been having some medical crap. Three doctor appts. this week alone. I emailed my doctor earlier and he wrote back and told me to go to the ER to get a certain thing checked out if my pain worsens. I have been dealing with something for a few months.  I just want it to all go away but that's not the way it goes. 

My mom isn't feel good so we are watching her too. She almost died twice in the past so she may be going to the ER too just in case. 

I also want to apologize that I'm not the young, happy go lucky, everyone love me, type of person you guys love. I can see that with the young people that have only been on GR a short time and already book bump and have the men going crazy and whatever else. Some of us have a lot of issues and can't be that person. I thank the ones that have always been my friend through the good times and bad times and don't care if I'm not all "bubbly." Pain and bullshit causes you to lose a lot of that as well. I have a lot of anger because of these reasons. I can not control myself. When I hurt or depressed I hate the world. I have to push myself to think of those things I'm grateful for. Some of you read that for Thanksgiving. 

I really hope that nothing bad is going to happen but I am having more problems then I ever have. I don't want something to take me from Lucy but it's been effed up.  I always thought it would be my suicidal crap that would take me away from the world. We shall see. 

I'm no longer going to people's profile page looking for your reviews to like. I do that because the homepage on GR doesn't show anyone. But I'm tired of seeing the same bubbly kid on half the people's pages. This is why I have my profile page with reviews only on it. Also I'm OCD and like to try to keep it neat or I get weird - er... I have some other friends that do the same so it's all good. I will keep going to their profiles if I don't see them on the homepage. I have it on reviews only but pffft, GR doesn't show everyone, or the same person book bumps about a hundred damn times that I get sick of seeing it. Just do it twice, once in the morning and once at night and most of your friends will see your review. If you still want to bump the hell out of it just do it periodically. I saw a "male" do it about 10 times in one damn day. I dropped someone for that crap! That's way too much in one damn day! 

So I'm going to be making some changes for my health and peace of mind. Well, try to get some peace of mind back. I'm too stressed out on GR with all the crap. I'm going to be taking notes and checking them twice to figure out what I need to do. I also need to figure out the friends thing. I have 700 friend requests sitting in my box. I don't accept anyone unless they have liked one of my reviews, have friends and groups in common and that's about it. I don't like trolls or collectors. Most people that do or have those three things are mostly going to interact with you and are good people. I don't know what the other people are doing. They come on and try to collect and then never come back to GR. What is the point in that? 

I have a lot of great books and buddy reads in groups set up this month and other randoms I'm hoping to read, health permitting. I'm excited about them and I hope to get to them all. I don't know if I will ever get that goodreads 2017 thing filled out because I didn't keep up with it and uggg. 

Thank you all once again for being great friends. I really hope to be back to myself soon. I will be there and trying to be my funny ish self but I can't promise with the medical and internet stuff going on.  

With all of the added medical I have been sitting still more often and reading more. A lot of people want to know how I read so much. Well, a person that only has their dog (by choice) and are stuck at home (not by choice) has time to read. Although, I take days to watch all of my subscription channels. Although, that will be nil with the internet thing. Damn it. I do have a million movies and box sets and will spend some time doing that to try to help going through this pain crap. 

Anyway, I didn't want to go on forever and I forgot half of the stuff I was going to say. So.... this has been a rambling sort of add stuff here and there. 

But there you have it! 

Happy Reading! 

Mel