The critically acclaimed author of Crank returns with a gripping, masterful novel, told in verse, that weaves a riveting story about a teenage girl who is raised in a fundamentally religious yet abusive family. @goodreads
I'm am just in pain from this book....
This is the first I have read of this author's work, but it will not be the last. I loved and hated this book so much.
hated the way Pattyn was treated by her alcoholic father and their
community. They were Mormons and they wanted all women to do as their
husband says and didn't care if the wife was beaten. It's whatever the
husband decides. There is a lot more to it, but I'm not going into all
Pattyn started having dreams about boys. She had all of
these thoughts about life. She wanted to know things. She was becoming a
rebel, at least in the eyes of her family and community.
dad finds out she had been hanging out...making out with a boy and
drinking, he decides to keep her in her room accept for school. Pattyn
finds out the guy she was messing around with was just using her, thank
God she didn't go all the way she thinks, but she was so enraged that he
dumped her so easy that she threw her bookbag through a window at
school. Things continue to escalate when he finds out he is with another
girl, who she decides to punch in the face and break her nose.
after those escapades cost her dad $1500 to pay for he had enough of
Pattyn. She wouldn't be a good little Morman girl so he ships her off to
his sisters farm in Nevada. Aunt J's house was just about 2 hours away.
There were things Pattyn's father did to Aunt J when they were teens
that made them become estranged. AND NO, NOT THAT!
But let me
tell you that Pattyn had the time of her life with Aunt J. I quickly
fell in love with this woman. She was so kind to Pattyn. She taught her
how to drive, she couldn't believe she was almost 17 and didn't know how
to drive. She taught her to ride horses and help her bring in the
Longhorn Cattle on the ranch. The BEST thing Aunt J taught Pattyn was to
love and be loved. Pattyn never had anyone in her family tell her she
loved her and showed her like Aunt J. Pattyn felt her mother was just a
brood mare that was there to pop out kids until she had a boy. She had 9
girls that included Pattyn and then she got pregnant finally with a boy
when Pattyn went to stay the summer with Aunt J.
Pattyn fell in
love with the neighbor boy named Ethan. He was so sweet and I loved him
too. Ethan lived with his dad on their ranch down from Aunt J's ranch.
J. went all out for Pattyn's 17th bday. She took her shopping and
bought her tons of stuff. Pattyn was beside herself. And she only got a
card from one of her sisters from home. Her parents didn't call! They
were just jerks. Ethan got her a nice gift too.
I won't give out
any more spoilers at this point because it soon becomes too real and
too sad. I think it's something you.. the reader.... should find out for
The only thing I have left to say ....... is..... I knew what was coming.... just not that bad :(