"I was the one he trusted. I was the one he loved, the only one who believed him, even when his own mother had locked him up and thrown away the key. And now, I was going to pass down the white tiled hallway, knock on his doctor's office door, slam his secret notebook on her desk and make her read it, make her understand what he was hiding, make her see what only I had seen."
April won't let Jonah go without a fight. He's her
boyfriend-her best friend. She'll do anything to keep him safe. But as
Jonah slips into a dark depression, trying to escape the traumatic past
that haunts him, April is torn. To protect Jonah, she risks losing
everything: family, friends, an opportunity to attend a prestigious
music school. How much must she sacrifice? And will her voice be loud
enough to drown out the dissenters-and the ones in his head? @goodreads
This book really got to me. This book is about
schizophrenia, bullying and certain people that just never give up on
you. The reason is got to me is that I have mental and medical issues
and I can understand what it's like to deal with them. I have know
someone who's father was schizophrenic and the things they had to go
through. This is the disease that terrifies people. Yes, the person can
be dangerous and yes, sometimes they can be monitored to where they can
have a life and be more in control.
April starts back to school
very much dreading it because her best friend Kris, transferred to an
upscale neighborhood and transferred her to an upscale school. April
doesn't want to be at school without her best friend. She feels without
her best friend she will just be invisible and have too much to worry
about. But... then.. she meets Jonah. He's the new boy in school and
really kind of cute and super nice to her.
After a bit of time
they form a bond and start going out. Her friend Kris is nagging her
about why he hasn't kissed her after two or three weeks! April is
wondering the same thing, but you see Jonah is just a really nice guy
and the day finally comes that they kiss and are in love. But something
is happening with Jonah. Why does has he started holding his hands over
his ears? Why does he look around frantically?
April and Jonah
mom have become friends and they start talking about Jonas just being
sick. Until Jonas starts having desperately scary episodes and they have
to take him to the hospital.
Jonas has a back story where his
best friend that was gay ended up being killed. He was bullied because
of who he was and was killed for it. Jonas blames himself and one other
person in his life for that happening. The doctors that have him in the
psych ward think it may have started his downward spiral into this new
April stays by his side through all he has to go through.
She's there every day after school visiting him and trying to help him.
She was so strong for him and so many things happened that were not so
good, but I just can't give out those types of spoilers.
book is under one of my favorites now and I plan to buy it when it is
released. It is sad and happy at the same time. I know that seems weird
but it is and I loved it so much.
I wish more people in this
world would not look at people with mental illnesses as lazy, or say,
"just get over it." I mean, you wouldn't say to someone with cancer,
just get over it..right? Wouldn't we all "JUST GET OVER IT IF WE
Here are some sites for information and advocacy
on this particular disease if anyone needs help on the subject. Thank
you to the author for supplying these: www.schizophrenia.com www.saarda.org
RECOMMEND TO: EVERYONE!
would like to thank NETGALLEY and SOURCEBOOKS Fire for giving me the
opportunity to read this wonderful ARC for my honest review***